Life

Wed, 29 Aug 2007 04:17:39 GMT

Ok to first start off with.
This will be my lasy Lj entry on home_onearth.

Im leaving thursday and I wanted a whole new journal for my future months in chile.

So...

If you want.
Add me.

stopstopstop_go

Do good guys. ill keep in touch as much as i can.
Ill be deleting this account on thursday.

Best Luck to everyone.

Sun, 15 Jul 2007 21:33:48 GMT

im burned and it sucks =[

Fri, 08 Jun 2007 23:28:08 GMT

Todays what?
The 8th?
Of june?
damn.
Summers already flying.
well i havent posted anything new.
So lets see.........

I graduated!
Thats new lol
Man i cant belive it
Its over
and i already lost my diploma lol
Its somehwere in my room
Damn man
It hasnt really hit me yet
I still think im going back to krop in august
fuck man ima miss highschool.
well to the class of 08
To warn u all
Man make ur senior yr the shit
its gonna pass by so fast
Trust me.
Fuck man i did it.
I worked so hard to fucking get that sheet of paper.
I almost cried when i finally got it
I wanted to
but i didnt
guess to embrassed
But i cried when i got home
at night when i was alone
lol
lil emo but na man only if u knew the shit
i had to go thru to get that day.
Fuck man.
I didnt have to get my ged i didnt have to get it in july
I got it the day i was suppose to
Man it feels good.

well besides that
Summers been ehh
Im sick
so it sucks
Havent been out really
Havent talked to any1 besides the people i live with
and david n jessica.
Dont feel like going out that much
especailly when im not gonna be her for half of yr
i want to saviour my house.
man ima get mad home sick
Oh well
its an adventure
and im down 4 adventures.

lets see what else?
still naruto crazed
haha
ummm
My moms more on the yes side to get the other tattoo
yes!
Excited 4 that.

and ehh thats pretty much it.
even though he will never read this.

Im sorry im such a bitch.
But happy birthday eric.
Ur finally 17
lol

Tue, 22 May 2007 21:38:11 GMT

oh man one more day and no more work homework anything whoo!
I got my year book.
Its ehhh.
I feel bad for the yearbook crew.
They fucked up soo bad.
Guess thats what drugs to do ya.
I had to return mine and get a new one cuz the minute i opened it pages in it fell out and i looked ta the lady like i was gonna kill her and she gave me a new one. =]
Matt and dreds are seniors in it lol
But overall its my year in a book.
So its good anyway.

Hey guys im done its here.
what what.

Cheryls party than my graduation what a week 4 my parents.

something weird is going on.
I dont know what it is.
i feel.
I dunno.
i feel.
empty?

Mon, 14 May 2007 23:41:27 GMT

fuck.
I wonder if my mom will let me do it.

I want to finish my tatto.
She thinks its already done but heh
just a little white lie.
Were going to get the initials on my neck next week.
Shes ok with that.
But the one on my shoulder.
I want to add to it.
But its pretty big so i wonder if shell let me do it.
Oh well Ill get the initals since she said yes already
Im already pushing it since She let me get the other 1 .
But i really want to add to it.
Oh well
Im 18 soon =]

Spiderman was weird.
2 much crying ugh

Ima watch pathfinder in 10 min.

Bills bringin home wendys.
mmmmmm

And i decided im having a gradute party at my house.
Just close peeps i guess.
Ima send the invites out soon.
I just wanted to go up n b like hey my house friday
but my mom said no
lol
gay
invites
who does that?
lol
oh well.
I wanna invite some1
but it would be really weird 4 them i guess.
I think ill still send it
But they dont have to come.

07!
whatwhatwhat

Thu, 10 May 2007 10:38:07 GMT

Reort:

Valdes,Tonia
Music p1
Mr.K

(Hed) pe

Thank you Jahred (a.k.a. M.C.U.D.) for being the founder of this wonderful band. Jahred Shaine founded (hed) pe, which stands for head planet earth, in 1994. There goal was to fuse the regions long-standing punk rock heritage with G-funk-inflected hip-hop to a sound he labeled "G-punk". They were formed back in 1994, when Jahred and guitarist Westyle became friends after noticing that they were always seeing each other at the same punk rock and hip-hop shows in Orange County. The musicians were getting tired of straight hardcore, and their passion for rap had begun to drive their creative energies. Soon after hooking up with four more like-minded individuals, they were soon showing at club 369 and many others across orange county.
After their full-length debut through jive records dropped, "Church of Realities" in 1995 , (hed)'s touring at home and abroad indeed brought about a change. They crisscrossed the States on Ozzfest, and shared stages with Korn, Static-X, Slipknot, Kid Rock, System of a Down, and dozens of other heavy-hitters. The band soon noticed that they had won over some fans who intently watched their every move. These five Southern California personalities had begun to jell into a crack unit of hip-hop inflected, punk-infected musical assassins. Furthermore, reveals Westyle, it was on their last few tours that the group began to learn what not to play.
There second album, Broke, came out in the year 2000. Then came there third, blackout, a few years later in 2003.Then right after they switched record labels from Jives to Koch. The band members are Jahred whose vocals, Chizad the guitars, Westyle also the guitars, Diza the drums and Mawk the bass. There diverse band and lyrics contain everything and anything. Its inapprioate, meaningful, crazy and overall just fun.

Wed, 09 May 2007 05:52:36 GMT

hahah. Today was just a random ass day.

Man,
Lifes so weird.

Dreams are even worse.

I cant wait till summer.
=]

Ima a kid.
Let me live.

First long entry in a while.

Thu, 19 Apr 2007 02:58:07 GMT

well today feels like a day where i just wanna let everything out.
Hows life going for you guys?
1 more month left of school.
Im excited.
Just that word.
Beacuse i think it falls under the category of nervousness 2.
Im applying to bcc.
But going to chile first.
When im 19 im joining the national gurad.
Those are my plans.
I want to travel.
I really do.
I wanna see the world.
cliche i know but i dont care.

I realized on march 9 2007 that i am the most confused person on my sexuality.
I really dont know what i am.

Im leaving highschool.& never want to come back.
And i want 2 leave highschool on good terms.
No problems. No drama. No hates. No dislikes.
I said this b4. But now u can see i mean it.
I have no problems and no i dont hate you. Yes that includes you.

Usually i dont put all my drama on lj but right now
im in the mood. and really dont care
Me and my 2 closest friends are not so close anymore
drugs over freinds sucks
It really is.
& yes i have the heart to live without them.
& yes i CAN do it.
But i still dont want to.
There my closest friends.
& now theres a place empty inside.
Yes i admit it
I hurt.

My familys fucked up.
& i really dont care what any1 has to say about it.
I love my parents.
And im behind them in w/e they do 100%.
I love my MOM.
And shes worth everything.

I passed alg2.
With literally a prayer.
I dont belive in god.
But down there somewhere.
Theres still some faith.
I cried.
My counselor told me he put me in the summer program.
That i will graduate in july.
I cried.
I cried in 3rd period.
My sophmore class.
A class where noone would understand.
I felt so stupid.
I worked so hard all yr.
Nightschool 4 times and a 7th period.
I wanted to die.
But i passed.
Right before i walked in that nightschool class.
I did something that i have never done.
I prayed.
Not because all of a sudden i was a jesus lover.
But more of an instict.
when theres a crisis
no matter what u r.
U rely on whoever.
And that first person is god.
I felt like i was talking to myself just praying.
I didnt even know what i was doing.
But i passed.
He overrided my grade and let me go.
And no that doesnt mean im now into the bible god jesus crap.
Nor do i belive it was god who did it.
But like in the first time in my life.
I relied on him.

It proves that,
Theres still some faith in me.
And i guess thats a good thing.

But so far im good.
I have my credits.
Im there.

Dont fuck up guys.
Its not worth it.

Proms here.
And i feel reatrded.
I hate dresses.
But have to get 1 so i dont breakmy moms heart.
So ill do it.
even though i really dont want to.
I was suppose to go with him.
But he fucked it up.
Im not a forgiving person.
& i admit it.
& really dont give a fuck.

I miss alot of things.
More than most.
But hey thats life right?

heh
one of journal topics in class were
why 32?
I knew exactly what he was talking about.
The v tech kids.
My answer was, because he couldnt get to more.
It suprised my teacher.
But i think that what had happened.

Kids killing kids.

Are world is ending soon.

happy bday maca jason n arriella

Tue, 17 Apr 2007 19:58:40 GMT

wish me luck guys.

Destiny awaits

Fri, 06 Apr 2007 18:20:03 GMT

I hate feeling sick.

THIS SUCKS

Wed, 04 Apr 2007 03:55:13 GMT

wooo im posting again.

Im staring at a lucky charms Cereal box
Deciding...........
If i should eat some
haha fatass i know

Whast new guys?

I painted my new room
Woo
Well my dad
I helped somewhat

I HATE MY GLASSES
Someone help.

Mays almost here
So i just wanted to let everyone know.

No grudges.
No dislikes.
Yes that even includes him.
But still refuse to speak
But w/e
No grudges
Ect Ect

I wanna leave highschool
With nothing to frown against.

Wanna chat?
Hit me up.
Im hyper 2day
woooo

HAH

well let me end this
Peace

Tue, 03 Apr 2007 03:59:18 GMT

Sorry guys,

I want to see the world.

Im moving =(
Down the hall
Im going to miss u room.

Damn i had to sit and think, to remeber My lj password.
When was the last time i logged in?

Well its april
OMG
haha
Summmers almost here
i can hardly wait
Am i gonna have a great summer or what?

I need my contacts back
These coke bottle glasses are killing me
Im blind!

Lifes good.
Its going well.
I miss cookies though =(

I am unemployed
and want a job
But close to home.

Im tired.

REALLY
tired..

April 14th is when the new ep comes out
Let me just go in a corner and go cut
and go Get it over with
WHY CAUSE ME MISERY AND PAIN?
Yes yes
Still obsessed with my jap shit

Theres a few people that i havent talked to in such a long time
But thats the way human relationships work i guess.

Someone asked me If i had to choose To be deaf or blind today what would it be.
Deaf popped in my head so fast.
But than the WHOLE day i was just listening to things that i would never be able to hear and it just made me think of shit.
My friend said i choose deaf cuz on naruto eps it doesnt matter Cuz u read what they say
BUT ITS NOT CUZ OF THAT lol

What a retarded Lj post in writing
I mean it makes no sense,
But wtf I dont care
UR A LOSER 4 READING IT!

Im thirtsy...

Mon, 12 Mar 2007 04:46:59 GMT

Yo

Im here always.

Remeber that.

Mon, 12 Mar 2007 04:45:23 GMT

Im going to start saving up.
So i can finsh my tattoo
I got the symbols i wanted already a couple weeks ago
Now i just want the design
ITS SO HARD TO SAVE.>

Sat, 10 Mar 2007 19:27:37 GMT

Hey guys
I made up my mind.
Took alot of time.
Things can change.
But
I know what im doing.
I know where im going.
& hope it goes thru.
Ill meet the few road bumps
and maybe even a couple detours.
But hey
Im ready.
2 more months
Congratulate me?
I think ya should
=)

Live life.

They way YOU want to.

Not them.

Thu, 15 Feb 2007 20:55:43 GMT

OMFGOMGOMFG
ITS HERE
THE DAY IS FINALLY HERE
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

After nightschool im speeding home.

Damn today was a fucking great day.

Wed, 14 Feb 2007 05:15:23 GMT

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>IS there anything you would like me to know but never had the chance to say for a certain amount of reasons or just never had the chance. Let me know it. Anonymous.<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<<

Ehh why not?
lol

Sat, 10 Feb 2007 18:54:35 GMT

OMG
I have butterflys in my stomach.
I have the worst anxious feeling all over.
From my toes to my head.
I feel like im gonna burst of excitment.
If this is how it feels to be in love.
Than godman.
To bad i dont feel it for a human being.
But for a show.
LAMOROFLLOL

2 things
2 of my most obsessed things are coming out and like th exact time.
I thought i was gona die.
DAMN MAN.wooo!!

OK Had to let out the excitment.
Im a losuh I know.
BUT I DONT FUCKING CARE.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
okok
lol
let me egt ready 4 work
peace yall

Sat, 10 Feb 2007 06:26:41 GMT

OMFG
Like no lie.
This weeks been the best ever MInus mat and the whole underclassmen drama.
BUT OMG WAT A GREAT WEEK!
Let me stop b4 i jinx it.

HAHAH
5 more days!
5!!!
WOOOOOOOOOOO

Mon, 05 Feb 2007 00:13:12 GMT

Im sorry world.
Im just not ready.
Skip me, Please?
Maybe I will be next time you come around.

Wed, 31 Jan 2007 04:29:24 GMT

damn
Last entry i posted?
Dunno

Well hmmmmm
Lifes

eh

Yeah

Drama as usual

Now im offically like never home
Today my dads like
So this is how its gonna be
I never see you

Im like its life.

He got mad but w/e.

WOW
I feel so bad for a few people right now.
Like i do.
If only i was blunt enough to get involved in other peoples drama.
But im not.
So i watch.
Feel bad.
Laugh.
Sigh.

Sucks for you.

Ill watch out for who i need to watch out for.

Kakshi gaiden is so close yet so far.
*reach*
*REACH*
ahhhhhhhhh
*cant grab*
Sometimes i dont even have time for naruto.
THATS FUCKING HORRIBLE.

Shikamaru is like WOWOMGAWESOMETHESHIT
But kakashis always first in my heart
Ok enough about naruto
lol

NOT

*excited*
15 more days
woooooooo

okok

Gotta do my community servive paper ready
PEACE OUT

OHOH yeah
Im thinking im making a huge graduation party
Not 100% sure
Dad wants it more than me
hahah

peace homie g

Tue, 23 Jan 2007 11:32:52 GMT

Dman it man.
Round threes starting soon.
I know it.

She fell aaaaaaaaallllllllllllll the way down again.

He makes me hate men, boys, guys, PENISES.
I promise and swear to myself i will never let a guy manipulate me in any way to make me look feel and act like pudding.

SO KNOW ONE THINKS IM A 2 FACE OR ANYTHUNG.
I DIDNT ALLOW IT.
I JUST SIMPLY GAVE UP.

HEY, ITS JUST HIGHSCHOOL.

Mon, 22 Jan 2007 01:00:53 GMT

I came home and just let it all out.
Damn man.
I havent done that since like wow.
Just keeping to much inside hurts.

Im done.
I say that alot.
And half the time i say it out of anger.
But really honestly and all seriousness
Im finished.
Ima live my life now.
And worry about me.
Care about myself.
& stop neglecting who i am.

Its my turn now.

Wed, 17 Jan 2007 23:14:23 GMT

well so far
lifes been going really good
Spare most of the details

4 more months and im out
sccaarrryyy
Ive been dreading it since summer

we had a sub the other day
He use to be a hippie
Lol
He told us his days
Very amusing
Hes so old.
ahaha
He went to woodstock and described everything
His memories were like if it was yesterday
He was a kool guy
HE WAS A HIPPIE THAT DIDNT SMOKE POT
I thought that was so fucking cool.
LMAO
He goes if you consider yourself a pothead
Your considered a loser in my book
He told us that if you like the music better when your high
Than you dont like listening to it period
Someshit like that
he was a cool old man haha

He made me feel good about each time i said no to everytime everyone wants to smoke.
Once in a while is str8.
But not everyday or everyweekend.
Even though i use to alot.
It fucks me up bad.
So i pretty much quit.
Dont get me wrong there has been a few times ive given in.
I get nagged for it.
Noone like the anti-smoking tonia
but oh well my desicion
GET OVER IT.

Our relationship isnt as bad as it was before.
But its not the best either haha
But whos is right?
I dont know what im gonna do with that part of my life just yet.

OJT is killing me ><

And im tired
Gonna take a nap
peace

Mon, 15 Jan 2007 06:16:10 GMT

ROFL

Spoon and ladel.

This weekend passed way to fast.